Review: Ryan’s Bed by Tijan

Some books are hard to read, and this book, Ryan’s Bed, is one of them. We know what it’s about based on the synopsis, so it’s no secret that MacKenzie has lost her twin sister to suicide. The rest of the book is how she cope’s with the loss of her sister, her best friend. It’s not easy losing someone, it’s definitely not easy losing your twin, your other half. Everyone grieves differently, and Tijan shows us a really eye-opening way.

Mackenzie is going through a really tough time, with the loss of her sister, her brother Robbie, who has been shipped off to another school. Her parents are never home and they’ve essentially forgotten about her. They don’t check up on her anymore, they barely talk to her when she is home and they won’t look at her. I get it, they’ve lost their daughter, and it just so happens that she looks just like her. It would be hard to see her every day and have a constant reminder, but as parents, they need to be there for their other children as well.

I couldn’t imagine having to go through what Mackenzie does. At a young age, a new phase in her life of starting senior high school. The feelings and emotions, trying to move on but not forget. That’s a lot for someone to go through. Thankfully she has her new friend Ryan. She just happened to crawl into his bed the night she found her sister. She was supposed to be in his sister’s room, but ended up in his, and she stayed. Mackenzie was able to relax and get some sleep. Since then, they have become friends, Ryan was more of a saving grace for her. Letting her sleep next to him, being with her during school, and not letting other people get in her face.

Ryan’s Bed is one emotional rollercoaster. It’s heartbreaking and also eye-opening. A much deeper message to open your eyes and talk. If you know someone who may be suffering, talk to them. Try to get them help. If you are someone who needs help, get that help. There are people to talk to, medications to take. There is always an answer. And suicide isn’t one of them.

I believe because of the nature of this book, it is intended for a mature audience. It’s listed as a Young Adult novel, but I see it more of a New Adult. It does contain sensitive matter, swearing and mild sex scenes.

Ryan's Bed Book Cover Ryan's Bed
January 21st, 2018

I crawled into Ryan Jensen’s bed that first night by accident.

I barely knew him. I thought it was his sister’s bed—her room. It took seconds to realize my error, and I should've left...
I didn’t. I didn’t jump out. I didn’t get embarrassed.
I relaxed.
And that night, in that moment, it was the only thing I craved.

I asked to stay. He let me, and I slept.

The truth? I never wanted to leave his bed. If I could've stayed forever, I would have.
He became my sanctuary.

Because—four hours earlier—my twin sister killed herself.

** Standalone full-length novel, Mature YA themes

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